Ennui or loneliness....

(wrote this piece when i was in usa, and felt very lonely)
Dated - Thursday, February 7, 2008

For last many days, probably months I was pondering over the thought that I should write....which slowly morphed into I would write. I thought that writing is done when you feel hyper activated or hyper sensitive. But it proved to be antithetical to my long held perception. Today I was feeling stale and bored. Tried all the medications: watched news, surfed bollywood sites and every thing which interests me but to no avail. Suddenly this 'in mode' thought of writing blogs crossed my mind. I'm not being critical to writing blogs. But I was being too lazy to exercise my mind. I can find volumes of insane excuses effortlessly when I do not want to do anything. After a long tussle between my active mind and sterile mind, I decided to write my maiden blog.

So ladies and gents....plz welcome the new kid on the blogging block. :D

I love reading blogs. I love the fact that even after the invention of umpteen number of mind boggling communication devices, humans tend to express their most tender feelings through words.
wait.......................
I'm rambling off the topic of my blog....
so I'll revert to the original idea...ennui or loneliness...(actually when I started this blog i was feeling turgid but now I am feeling relieved).

back to the topic......
I sometimes feel that loneliness and blandness should be declared as synonyms. Loneliness is a very relative word. In broader terms it says that "you are unhappy because you are not with other people (from cambridge dictionary)". But then I think who are these people...colleagues, roomies, friends, extended family or the loved ones. I guess it's loved ones. Because you can feel upbeat with colleagues, roomies, etc. for few moments but surely not when the hourhand starts ticking. Yeah, I miss my loved ones. I do. Spending time with them is the panacea for me. Ennui is trying to hold me again in her strong arms...what should I do? Simple...stop thinking about her(ennui). So I drop my pen(actually laptop) :)

Phew.....I've written a lot today. Someday I'll share my blog with my loved ones.
Till then it's a lonely journey.....